A Lot of New experiences ...

along with my sense of loss on loss on loss and more ... those who need to know and those who don't. This has made for a more interesting time than I had envisaged as my nest emptied of the kids ... 

Only today on chatting with more professional people realising with my recent health dilemmas on top of other things ,,, I have certainly been through a lot ... Yes I have ... and so to have others with different obstacles to overcome ... we are all unique with a unique but similar at times life we lead as we breathe on this earth ... 

I have achieved and seen a lot of lovely new things in all of this and with the graciousness of the knowledge of my late husband wishes if he went before me; which unfortunately he did ...

I too have met some fascinating people I might not have met had circumstances been different ... all in all, in adversity there are many blessings ... and taking time out to enjoy the simplest things in life too ... has given me a bit of joy again ...

My Medical Appointment ... All Strange ...

Hospital car park

but familiar new ... first time I been back in a hospital since I spent time with daily visits last year with my late Dad ... although in a different county ... another obstacle overcome ... although a bit stricken that my late husband was not here for moral support today either ... 

All smooth going today: apart from the fact I had to have an external scan as well ... to check a particular area. 

At least I have caught up with another check on my health ... is the way I see it ...

And the swiftness of the NHS when you are in need of a quick resolution to your health ... yet again for me personally ... 

I enjoyed the magnificent view while I was here and had a walkabout too before my appointment ...

After though I could not get back home quick enough ... it was extremely busy in places and a little overwhelming at times ... for someone still getting used to the outside world and its workings ... again 

Colour in Dull

The colour in the photos whether dull or bright raises a smile especially after tears of times rather not remember so much now ... And happiness in all photos in recovery of my new happier times sure reminds me of life as once was ... And using time wisely in capturing moments so easily ignored if we rush by ...

Halloween Half Term

Today...on entering Asda in half term week it was good to see simplicity in the Halloween display of a supermarket 

Pumpkin Patch 

Beautiful pumpkins all in a row in display units and simple outfits on the mannequins, none of the unnecessary gore that gets associated with this time of year...

Plenty of pumpkins in all shapes and colours ... for simple decor... 

Variety in a Day Week Month and time ...

Amusing oneself when regaining strength from a rather trying time without more trying times. The adverse reaction to the new meds to help solve a new health dilemma ... and without both my late husband and Dad ... with Dad being there for my thumb crush injury and now not too ... 

As in my life always plenty to do to fill the time ... until I am ready to re-join the world again ... which at times I wonder if I ever be ready ... I look usual on the outside more so as time moves on .. but inside is another matter altogether ...

And I seem to be one of a few taking photos like a kid in a candy store I relish this enjoyment I now have to have undisturbed time to enjoy at times what surrounds us ... and the seasonal change ... where although I have missed chunks of time again this time to my own health ... time is my own now ... and while I have it I will try and capture some of those precious moments that all too soon will be gone ... as our lives move on and forward ... and only these images remind us of what once was ... along with our memory ... if our mind keeps well ... 

Confidence in Calm

and keeping busy while regaining my strength ... it was good to get to see a park here in the garden of England, to see again the grounds maintenance and care that gives us these public areas to enjoy. 

It is lovely too that in the past, when my husband was alive, we used to visit gardens of all kinds. And not just family or friends, but National Treasures and the local charitable garden walks in the locality, where people opened up their gardens to strangers. 

And although he was too ill at the time, the local World Garden which supported the lottery funded film Hidden Histories film our daughter participated in. This garden at Lullingstone Castle was one of the last I visited with our daughter when the film was being promoted there, before she went to uni.

One of my bucket list places is The Lost Gardens of Heligan in Cornwall to visit in the future ...

Presentation Preparation and Publishing ...

the wonders of all those who too had ideas and put into action these to share with the world, to enjoy too, so we could all have a chance to electronically log privately, unlisted or public, with  interaction or not and all the many types of social media ... all neatly wrapped up with tools ... to help give it a polished look ... and for those housebound or not and I have said often before ... we can experience jumping out of a plane, for example, without actually doing it ... thanks to on board cameras and posting it on the net ... for all the bad things put on the internet there is a lot more good ... 

I was looking through my various portfolios ...

of photos whilst my left ear was recovering. And that very same day I posted my last blog here, I had the very start of another ongoing health dilemma since that day. Only now although weak; my mind is starting to try to form sentences again ... just as I like ...

Last week I was keeping busy revisiting and sifting through my various portfolios of my recovery and doing some housekeeping on them ... 

• The usual ones of nature and landscapes and various filtering 
• The few craft items I have finished mainly in yarn craft 
• WIP on designs in both knitting and crochet and some sewing crafts ... and embroidery ... Which are all very therapeutic 
• Designs are there in this yarn craft ... but not in fruition ... as it used to be ...
• And of course charting the two homes from the clutter days of loss ... through to now ... 

Blue Water .... From Early Days of Loss and grief ...

Memory Lane from a week gone by of special times ... now on my own ...

A rare event in the early days of widowhood ... from many breakfasts on way back from school runs via Blue Water
photo taken on one of the early phones passed on from sis ... and not really interested in life at that time ... a bit of sitting here lost in time remembering the many, many times here before social isolation

We came here a lot to enjoy the setting of this one time largest European shopping centre set in a quarry and have a meal

Thanks for the ... and to the precious time of everyone!

I am alone in my thoughts, but never, not really alone. I talk to the wall and now too I talk to my blogs and last but never least I chat away to those too, who happen to pass by and glance at these array of words, formed from my part of our world and these experiences I have here in this segment of the planet ... 

It never ceases to amaze me, how we have many forms of communications now, which reaches across all spectrums of media, from those who brought this about and put into action. It is not always fully understand that these opportunities have opened up a whole new world to explore, especially if you struggle in other forms of communications or to get out for so many different and varied reasons